Everybody Else

Anyways, was just at the gym and this song came up and got me to thinking. Not that this song is anything special but the fucking subject matter is priceless, especially when it comes to my life.... So let's get on with this...




First of all period, my life is like music, I can find a song to vibe for any situation. Let's quick time bring up an instance my boy pointed out in his blog and that is confusing to me too. I unno why I like girls that I like even when it feels as if I shouldn't like them and they have given me about a 1000 reasons to stop.

Anyways, back to the matter at hand. When you do have to impress someone, why the fuck does it always come down to being fake. How come relationships nowadays make it complicated enough where someone needs to pretend to be someone they ain't just to be liked? There seems like there this blueprint and we all gotta be clones or in any case no one will appreciate you for you? Like I've felt millions of times that I got more to offer than these other dudes, but I ain't about to compromise me... Like not to the extent where it ain't me. It's true, when it comes to this it's more about progress and not perfection but at the same time, I can't change who I am completely, I may look for a compromise as long as its two people working on it and not just me. But for real, why can't I just be myself? I mean I kno I got much more to give than half these other dudes, but w/e, just speakin out my mind, here in private, cause if any of the ladies heard this they'd flip it as if it was my fault... Just. Like. That.

PS Someone women I mess with I know I really shouldn't like, like it ain't gonna work, but.... fuck, can't help it... human nature I guess

PPS Why is it all of a sudden so awkward to tell someone that you like em? It's like a friendship ender... Shouldn't that be a compliment? Shouldn't it be like "why thank you" ? As if:

#1: I Like You
#2: WHAT?! I'll SHOW YOU!!!!

More dopeness on the topic of how I feel right now (yeah music is my saviour):

(HAHAHA THIS MAN IS A PUSSY CAUSE HE GOT FEELINGS HE SHARES... I know people talk like that behind backs... hahahaha... Like I give a fuck....)

I Wish I Knew Natalie Portman...

But seriously, I've been listening to a lot of k-Os today, and yes that includes the Yes! album provided to me by a friend. I am still going to buy the album when it comes out in two days to show my appreciation for good music and everything that is right with the industry. The album is great and if you have money buy it, you'll like it plus you'll support a great and dedicated artist. Also, Natalie Portman seems like a cool person to chill with, just a real down to earth woman also gorgeous, intelligent, and a great actress.

Seriously though, listening to that track as well as Kings of Leon and Cold War Kids through the day made me do some serious thinking, just about where I am at right now and who I've been, perhaps who the fuck I am when it is all said and done, and the truth is (pun intended) I just don't know, not yet at least. Moved enough times in my life, never had a long enough time anywhere to really build connections. It feels that the past 4 years of my life is when I really started making true/real friends (excluding 2-3 back back back home). I don't know what moving so much has done to me, but I feel like it hast thrown me out of sync just a bit, made me adjust, become almost a chameleon, almost not real. I guess adjusting to life like that is hard, so I appreciate the slowdown of pace, allowing me to find myself and all the friends who are with me through this process. I guess I'm just me, whoever that may be and I won't know who that person is until the end, but isn't it sort of the deal for all of us anyways? The funny thing is that I've tried to be everyone else and I felt like garbage, and now that I don't really know and start to figure out who I am, I feel fantastic, being around intelligent people and good friends always feels great. I'd call out names but that seems as much of a cliche as anything.

"Feel like 19 goin on like 28
College educated, pockets still a lightweight
but im in the right state
how im feelin, just great
gonna finish first though I started up late"


On that note

Just Thinking

There is just something about sitting and thinking. Just chilling around 555 with everyone else jamming guitar makes it kind of hard not to think. I mean I'm tone deaf (whatever that means, never was too sure) so I am not much for picking up a musical instrument and just jumping head on. I don't know, there is just always some sort of point in life where you pause and just think, about nothing, about everything, weird thoughts creeping around (in my case while listening to friends jam on acoustic and reading Marvel's Civil War). Where does value in life come from? How do we know what we want or if a day was successful. I don't know. Today did jack, bought some groceries, made some burgers, drank some beers, played some SFIV. People would say the day was shit but I was around friends and I'm fairly satisfied... Who the fuck knows where value is? Hopefully this gets me closer to somewhere? but to where? And on that note:

http://www.divshare.com/download/7080343-bea

Digital Design and Jon Hope

Seriously, I almost forgot to put up this link. But for those who haven't hear, I do digital design and here is my Deviant profile (Sounds like a police report):

http://ukreative.deviantart.com/


Also, please start listening to Jon Hope, because if not I'll be that dude saying I told you so:

Hilarity

Fucking hilarious... Seth McFarlane.

Fast And Furious (And Tuesday Shotout)

Just saw that flick today. To be honest I do not see what people dig in Paul Walker (okay, maybe the ladies are salivating for a reason), but the man CANNOT ACT. Like I think the cars acted better than Paul Walker in F&F. In all honesty, if you're a fan of the whole racing culture and love cars, it's not that bad of a movie to see, but don't expect phenomenal writing or terrific acting. Better than Tokyo Drift tho...



Also, the track for the day, kind of old, but I've had it for a bit. The EP just dropped to day, so here is a little Jon Hope for you all. Keep your heads up, going to get better.

Line of the Day

Today was scarce on music for me so this one comes of Marky's - City on My Back

"I don't wanna lean on em \\ have to cause a scene on em \\ bring Queen Latifa I will put the Maybelen on em"